Life without the box of chocolates

I have been practicing detachment, and have been focusing on the food aspect becuase it is a struggle today. But I begin to question it. I was faced with a box of chocolates, and it was past 12pm, and I had already had a wonderful meal earlier. It was a new kind of chocolate, very tempting. And yet, I was stead fast in my decision to abstain from taking food at innapropriate times. But as time went on, I thought "I may or may not end up having one, but when it comes down to it, I would enjoy one."

This brought me to a conflict, do I have one, or don't I? My decision was to have one, because I knew that I was not attached to the idea of getting one, but it would be an added bonus if I could have one. If they were gone by the time I got there, my dissapiontment would be nonexistent, because, I knew that it was not important to have one. I was unnatached.

It was a nice chocolate, I enjoyed it, and after I had had one, I did not desire another. I feel this means that the practice of non-attachment is less rigid, because you have to be unnattached to the rules.

One thought that resounded in me today is "Not so." I feel this is a good teaching, and the one that I shall keep in mind while becoming ever more mindful.